man I have to get back into writing this thing but lots of times i forget about it, which I guess is just symptomatic to the internet in general, like I spend so much time in front of the computer pretending to work but looking at the internet that I feel like I am constantly remembering and forgetting webpages, blogs, articles, etc. Which is probably true of lots of people who spend lots of time on the internet and like a new form of cognition, etc. etc. I like bookmarking things but then I forget why I bookmarked them, but have a good time going back and forth around them when I find them again in a year or so. I will also read something several times, which I do with books as well, so this might not be connected to the internet as a medium per se, just a way that an existing tendency of mine lines up well with it…
At the same time, I will look at everything and everyone which probably is related to whatever the uh internet technique of the observer is, although I don’t know how to articulate it since its main features seem to be no attention span and no memory, but also a great capacity for seeking out (meaningless) information. I don’t think this is normal (or if it is, the people that I know are weird about it and won’t admit it) but I will try to think of random names of people I went to school with, friends of friends that come up in conversations, names I read about in the newspaper, people who have helped me like buy wine at the fancy liquor store and given me their cards, basically anyone I come into contact with, etc. etc. and google them, I am not sure why, it doesn’t have anything to do with actually wanting to find information about them, more with being fascinated that the information is actually there. Does that make sense?
Anyway, I’m not exactly sure what I am trying to describe here, except the fairly captain obvious observation that the internet as a medium (media?) makes people process or seek or require different kinds of information in different ways (I think I wrote about this before somewhere) but that no one is thinking yet about what this means, except in cheesy ways that center on internet identity (could not give a shit about this) or like making the private public (also no care). I am probably not the typical internet user anyway but I am probably manifesting behavior that is symptomatic of a larger general tendency? I dunno and I will stop here cause it’s getting rambly and boring….
Tags: autobiographical, late capitalism, meta, rambling, reflexive
